"I learned the hard way that they all say things you want to hear. My heavy heart sinks deep down under. You and your twisted words, your help just hurts. You are not what I thought you were."
If there's anything my marriage and previous relationships have taught me, it's that men lie. They can can be deceitful, conniving, selfish, inconsiderate bastards. I woke up this morning to find myself in another predicament that I've encountered far too many times in the last 10 years. I wonder why I stayed so long. Why did I allow myself to be taken for granted? Why did I allow myself to be used? Are there any decent men still left on this God forsaken Earth? I'm starting to have serious doubts.
HIM: "You are the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I'm the worst thing that's ever happened to you."
ME: "At least you're right about one thing."
I'm self-sufficient, I'm independent, and I thought I was highly intelligent. So why do I allow myself to be run over? Sometimes I wonder if I really am that "damaged" girl that I was labeled so long ago. I don't want to be some bitter, hateful woman that has no trust in anyone. But it's hard to look past all the hurt and pain I've dealt with. It's hard to think that I'll ever have a chance to be happy; to have the kind of life I deserve. All my decisions have lead me to where I am today. They say love is blind and I've been stumbling in the dark for far too long. Maybe I'm just now opening my eyes to the truth. It's time to save myself.
